[[*W i n t e r T e a r s*]]

2.9.06

[[long long time...]]

long time since i last blog i realised. just so happen to have the sudden urge to blog right now. at this very moment! lol.
irritating terence just turned my mood from a hyper and high one to one that's super guilty and really low one. i guess no turning back for it. >< probably the retribution from suan-ing george and him too much today. no wait. ytd! hahah. okay! just in case you guys get lost. this is it. we were talking about the most common topic in the world wide world ever! relationships.. probably due to my insecure feeling, fear of getting hurt. i never seem to be ready for one ever. somehow i feel comfortable within my small little hermit shell (: i don't want to get hurt. I am afraid i cant take it.. seriously. but.. like what he said. i am actually in turn hurting someone else. but what can i do?? is it my fault? probably it is.. ><
now at such a time, i am still trying to think of an idea for my EoM. for all JC students u all might "haish" at the sight of this! lol. but yes! we will all have to do it. have been on this since 3 hours ago? or maybe longer? just no mood for it. simply mental block! productivity 0%. what a waste of time. Unlike me right? i am so sure.
weirdly, my mum who always makes full use of her time is not sleeping now either! apparently cant get to sleep just like me. i m probably suffering from insominia. >< this aint good at all. feeling really zombie-like now..
back to the topic. why am i hurting people? 'cause i reject them? but.. i didnt! wait.. maybe i did.. but.. but.. i really don't mean to. i didnt meant it that way. i don't want to hurt their hearts, cause them trouble or unhappiness. but why me? >< i don't want to be the bad guy!! haish. i seriously don't know and don't understand what do they see in me.. i m not pretty, not tall, not slim, not exactly demure, not special, not attractive, not desirable. I am NOTHING! NOBODY! but why? oh wells.. thats life.
apart from the common topic, my usual life is just as routine as ever! studies, council, band, science attachment, piano lessons, etc.. all the boring things. tomorrow. no wait. today would be family3! didnt have time to inform my parents about it. anyway i highly doubt they will bother to go either.. oh wells.. oh yes! my bruises from the ride.. lol. kind of stupid to think of that. hopefully all will be well and smooth-going later! (:
tomorrow. no today shall be a better day!! (:

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|2:01:00 a.m.|

[[*The Writer*]]

name: peizhen
bdae:05 may 1989
age: 19+
horoscope: taurus
nicks: pz
skool: peiying pri, st nicks, vj, nus
location: singapore
worth: $2,133,082

resolution: none currently

[[*My Adores*]]

food:any food!
drinks: iced cold ones! esp chocolate!
pastimes: listening to music, playing music, slacking, stoning
people: all who consider me as a friend! (:

[[*My Detests*]]

people: none so far! hopefully forever too!
food: anything tasteless or taste horrible!

[[*Music's Playing*]]

artist: tank
song: give me your love

[[*My Past Memories*]]

[[*The Conversations*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

[[*Credits*]]