[[*W i n t e r T e a r s*]]

2.5.08

[[blue within]]

blue is definitely the color I see in everything now.
Not that I hate it or anything. In fact, I really love the color blue. Honestly.

Oh wells. After about a year of not updating my status, I just had this sudden weird urge to do so now. Not that I m hoping for anyone to chance upon here and see this at all.

Just a brief summary of the past year...
A levels gone. Results came. I did pretty well. Somewhat similar as for O levels.
Tried and stayed on a job for 4 months. Considered quite an achievement for me I would think. -.-"
Oh but I really dread everyday to work. Hearing all those brainless questions and complaints. There must be a problem somewhere. Either in the company or the people here just have nothing better to do with their time.
And seriously, next time if you call in to any hot lines, PLEASE DONT TAKE THOSE WHO PICK UP AS THE PERSON IN CHARGE. because we simply ARENT!
(not that I really bother now since I m out of it)
Tried on salsa dance lessons. Getting interesting now I would say.
Turned 18 ages ago and tried on alcohol? Love it! (: But weirdly can't get drunk.
Turned 18 and tried clubbing of course.. well.. I would say it is a good outlet to be my extreme usually unseen self. Go crazy and throw all my thoughts to the ends of the world.
About to turn 19. Realised I "aged" a lot more? Having some real serious memory lag / loss here.
Just watched "What A Girl Wants". Pretty hilarious show. Entertaining. The usual America Happy Ending plus a little of fairy tale fantasy. Oh wells.. all girls should just love those fantasy isnt it?
However, why isnt life really like drama? All those shows we see on big screens may have their down times but somehow there will always be this twist and helping hands to aid them through. Why isnt life so? Their happy endings all seem to come so quickly, so much so in time. But nothing is really in time here for me I guess.
Actually what I m going through aint any big deal.. seriously. In fact, compared to those starving out there in Africa, I m way more fortunate. Maybe it is just the weather that got into me, to be moaning so shamelessly at my already-so-wonderful life.

But despite all that, I still cant bring myself to say what exactly happened. Oh well. maybe part of it.
Felt really cheated. I pinned all my hopes on my mum to give me a nice birthday. spend time with me on that day itself. It's not difficult to fulfill at all. In fact, she was the one who suggested it in the first place. All the hopes just dashed like that because I didnt have difficult wishes? Because I didnt have specific wishes to fulfill? or places to go to? This is really unfair. I think she hasnt even bothered to prepare a birthday gift for me yet. When she took so much trouble and planned so much way in advance for my brother's birthday which is about a month later than mine... I accept that it's my brother's 21st birthday which is an impt age. But... why must I be the sacrifice? or at least I m feeling so...
So much had happened in the past few days.. But I get nothing from my mum. only her constant complaints of her worries on her enrichment courses, on her work, on her colleague, etc. My dad as usual never gave any. No one had exactly stood in my shoes and think how I would think about all these...
Of course. I know I must go on with life. Move on. I have always been able to do that.. without help. But why not this time?

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|1:38:00 a.m.|

[[*The Writer*]]

name: peizhen
bdae:05 may 1989
age: 19+
horoscope: taurus
nicks: pz
skool: peiying pri, st nicks, vj, nus
location: singapore
worth: $2,133,082

resolution: none currently

[[*My Adores*]]

food:any food!
drinks: iced cold ones! esp chocolate!
pastimes: listening to music, playing music, slacking, stoning
people: all who consider me as a friend! (:

[[*My Detests*]]

people: none so far! hopefully forever too!
food: anything tasteless or taste horrible!

[[*Music's Playing*]]

artist: tank
song: give me your love

[[*My Past Memories*]]

[[*The Conversations*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

[[*Credits*]]