[[*W i n t e r T e a r s*]]

4.5.08

[[mistake?]]

With regards to the last emo bit of my previous post, it was resolved.
My mum suddenly, as if she read my post, said that she has plans for Monday and took leave for it already. WEIRD. but GREAT (: haha. I still do have my mummy for birthday. (I sound so much like a little girl, don't I? But it's always great to have your parents around to depend on (: )

Well that above is kind of a mistake I would say. But more of this 'mistake' that I kept seeing on this friend's sms to me.
A mistake not to view certificates/qualifications that highly...
A mistake not to have the appropriate qualifications for that age...
A mistake to like a nice girl while knowing that it's impossible between them... (not that the girl said anything about that)
A mistake of the world to indulge in such ignorance for branding...

And more importantly some deep reflection of what is life to me? to him? to you?
To some, earning the big bucks now is the thing in life. Money undeniably is important and vital for survival but it cant be the only sole reason for survival. If that's really so, I would have to agree with that friend.. That's a life not worth living for.
Sadly... I have been living such a life for the past 4 months. Working just for the money...
Putting in nothing other than the bare minimal to get the $$ at the end. I must admit that feeling is horrible. The past 4 months have 'eaten' so much into me and my soul that I m barely what I used to be.
The enthusiastic, work-driven, challenge seeking me... Where's that? Barely much traces of that in me now.
Left now is the person bearing the same appearance but not the character.. only one that is pessimistic, emotional, weak and ultimate slacker I would say. How sad.. Oh and indulging in self pity. That's the worst.
I need some stimulant in life. Seriously in need of that.

Back to the topic, are all those above mistakes?
Why has this society come to such stages of being so qualification conscious? It is as if qualification labels a person to be good and bad. Academics SHOULDNT be the only yardstick for judging a person, isn't it? Especially in the situation of getting a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Seriously, if a girl/guy dump you 'cause you lack qualifications, that person aint the right one for you. BUT.. it would be a different situation when it is due to communication problems arise from different backgrounds.
Personally I think the most important factors that would contribute to a lasting relationship would be good communication and understanding towards each other. Those are really important. Without that, simple little misunderstandings can just break the relationship as easy as the wind blows a feather away.

Well... to that issue on boyfriend, it makes me wonder when is the right time to get attached? My mom got attached to my dad back when she was only 17. So does that mean I should be now? (considering I am turning 19)
Haha I dont deny that I do fantasize on getting a boyfriend once in a while. But it is just so different in real life. I totally can't picture myself acting intimate with a guy. Not at all! Maybe with my mom, my sis, or even my daddy, but no others I think.
Talking about that made me recall the extremely freaky encounter of a guy trying to get me to know what it is to be high. Till now, I still dont understand how such a smart guy will become such a weird person. I sure wont want to know him in real life. The encounter online is bad enough.
And this links me to another topic! which is totally off from the title. That would be confessions. I personally think that confessions now has become increasingly lacked of sincerity. Those words might still be the same, but I sure do think that the method of saying them makes a lot of difference. Because of all these high technology now, an email/an online chat/an sms/a phone call would just do the trick. Of course if there was already something going on between the couple, those above will just act as a trigger to make them "formalise" their relationship as a couple. However, there are times that things aren't so. Just some personal opinions on that.
Writing about this really make me itch to call up my friend and talk all about it! Sadly, I guess she's asleep. Maybe I should just try my luck (: I must really say I owe this friend of mine so much so much that I probably wont be able to pay back enough.
Friendship is so precious, isnt it? Then why must people give it up for a boy-girl relationship? At least for now, I think friendship is sufficient. (:

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|1:33:00 a.m.|

[[*The Writer*]]

name: peizhen
bdae:05 may 1989
age: 19+
horoscope: taurus
nicks: pz
skool: peiying pri, st nicks, vj, nus
location: singapore
worth: $2,133,082

resolution: none currently

[[*My Adores*]]

food:any food!
drinks: iced cold ones! esp chocolate!
pastimes: listening to music, playing music, slacking, stoning
people: all who consider me as a friend! (:

[[*My Detests*]]

people: none so far! hopefully forever too!
food: anything tasteless or taste horrible!

[[*Music's Playing*]]

artist: tank
song: give me your love

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