[[*W i n t e r T e a r s*]]

27.7.08

[[Another sleepless nite?]]

well well. I am shifting into Raffles Hall tomorrow night! (: Or rather it is tonight actually.
Seriously I have no idea to be happy or sad about that.
Glad that Raffles Hall aint that active and thus not so taxing on me/my packed to the max schedule. But that means not so much fun too ): oh wells. Life and its sacrifices.

The past week has been really hectic. plus all the travelling up and down NUS. Gosh am I glad that I am going to stay on campus. Just one week of travelling and I can't take it anymore. Imagine for 4 years O.o I will probably end up skipping all the lessons. But that wont happen (: at least for year1.

Since on the topic of hostel, I shall describe a little more about my room. Seriously speaking, I think my room location is pretty good already. At least it is not at some dark corners of the staircases or anything along that line. LOL!
It has a greenery view just outside the windows. And outside the door, we have the badminton court (: Oh yes! That reminds me to bring my badminton racket along!
Ah yes! I almost forgot to mention. YingXuan is my room mate (: Yay! Though I havent exactly stayed with her in any camps or whatever-so, I believe she will make a wonderful room mate (: So excited by the thought that I am going to stay on campus. and not at home! HAHA. And of course in order not to waste my time, I am so going to pack all my time up with activities in school (: Then my stay in campus will be worthwhile!

enough of hostel talk. let's go on to school!
oh gosh. Just the thought of studying and modules/lectures/tutorials make me totally feel like slacking at home and do nothing but that! I don't want to start studying ): I havent had enough of fun! Everything just went past so quickly! How I wish I can turn back time.
Anyway studying aside, the bidding for modules/ selection of modules are totally giving me headaches. How to make a choice out of all the modules? All the different timing of lectures/tutorials.. How am I going to plan them properly (without making my eyes pop out from staring too much at the computer screen just to make sure nothing clashes)? And the worst is what will happen to me if I don't get the modules I want?! Am I left with nothing to study?! OH NO! sheesh.. All these thoughts are freaky while everything else is just a whole mass of blur.

Sheesh.. Let's not go on somemore about those horrifying stuffs. Anyway something fun and interesting about school! The USP community is just so cozy and fun to be with. I seriously recommend all to try for it! (: All the seniors are so friendly and nice (: No weird stares. No acting invisible. I am so looking forward for all those funky modules! (hopefully they are. :p) But the only thing is that I just don't seem to find people taking Chemistry in USP. Though apparently there are people taking Chemistry in USP. Hopefully I will get more chances to meet them (:

Well well all the orientations are coming up. And hopefully I do get to go for the Science Orientation Week too. So that at least I get to know more people in Science, and not be too much an outcast. :( But with all the clashes, it is quite mind-boggling to decide exactly which one to go for at which point of time. Though I seriously would love to just go for USP one! However, for the sake of knowing my neighbours, knowing my faculty/potential classmates, I have to go for the other 2! And really hopefully hopefully they aren't what they are described to be. (:

*pray hard*

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|4:10:00 a.m.|

24.7.08

[[sleepyhead]]

For the past few days, all I can think of and all I feel like doing 24/7 is to sleep! Lie on a nice comfy bed with my pillow, bolster and blanket! (: That is totally heavenly.
But I simply don't do that. For example, I rather sit on my chair and blog about the heavenly feeling of sleeping than to really execute it. How weird can I get?
Yet I just can't stop fantasizing about my comfy bed. Soft. Smooth. Somewhere I can straighten and stretch all my bones and muscles. Soothe my aching body (which never stopped aching due to all the things I do)

Gosh what a horrible feeling to be always thinking of sleep!

Anyway this is definitely not due to lack of sleep. Because I sleep more than 8 hours. Maybe just the tiring thought of all the things waiting to be done. All the things lined up one after another. That thought itself drains off my energy. Yet I just simply can't stop myself from wanting to join more. Fill up all my time, though I really want to slack more than anything else. Seriously, what's wrong with me? But don't you wanna be part of all the fun things? I definitely want to! LOL. I just totally contradicted myself.

Anyway instead of staring blank and thinking about my bed, I should just go to bed! That's a short post for now.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|1:04:00 a.m.|

23.7.08

[[I am just not the right girl]]

I have weird habits. (or rather do weird things)
There's no consistency in things I do.
I am not the good girl type.
BUT neither do I belong to the naughty side.

blah blah.. the list is basically non exhaustive.

This reminds me of something a friend just mentioned to me. "I don't even know myself. There are simply too many facets of me." And another article saying that one trait of happily married women is that they have the ability to sustain the many facets of themselves, giving surprises to their husbands. But is that really true?
No doubt that will make life really interesting, but unpredictable too! Lack of security in life! (such a commonly used phrase) Actually even at times, I find my actions so ridiculous that I can't believe that I did it in a conscious mind. It is like I can't even control myself. If I were to turn back time, I definitely wont want to do that again.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|2:14:00 a.m.|

14.7.08

[[uncertainty]]

Life with its so many uncertainties... Is that to be feared?

The unknown future that lies ahead. That seems pretty daunting to me. Many people who know me might just laugh it off and say "What is there to be afraid of? Especially for you. I am sure you will have a nice bright future ahead." But is that really true? What guarantees that?

Nothing.

Just had a random short conversation with a friend on what is fear. What do you really fear? And it seems to be that he got some great insights on that or something. Mentioned that it can be such a great relief to know exactly what is your fear. But just a word - uncertainty. Does it answer all?

Let me start with a list of fears I think I have/had (and overcome it)
1. I used to have a fear of heights. Even if I was to just look down from the 1st floor, it will make me tremble in fear that I will just drop down and be smashed into pieces (or something along that line). But there was once my brother forced me to climb off the 1st floor and jump straight down to the ground level. And of course I was alright (if not I won't be here now). And I guess from then on, I overcome that fear. Why so? I guess it all boils down to the fear of the unknown i.e. how I would end up after falling down a 'great' height. That should count as uncertainty.

Anyway this post was actually drafted weeks back. And I totally can't think much now. Let alone do a reflection. So that's all for uncertainty.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|12:39:00 a.m.|

6.7.08

[[Thailand Trip 2]]

A continuation of my previous post.

Day 2 at Thailand
The sun-burnt day! We went to Ancient City and cycled around in there for hours. All of us ended up sun-burnt. But apparently I recovered super fast from the burnt. I am so fair now, especially compared to the rest in the group :p

Oh and 'cause of the van we rent for the day, we got the chance to dine at this pretty good restaurant (: It is supposedly to be with the sea side view. But the sea looks so brown that it looks more like a swamp. LOL. Luckily there ain't too many flies there.

Next stop was Erawan Museum. The building and walls there are really pretty. All the engraving and stuffs! The trip there inspired some ghost talks too. LOL.

After that, as planned, we went to Khao San Road, the Backpackers Lane. Thinking that they will sell cheaper stuffs from the name "Backpacker", but much to the contrary, the things there were much more expensive. All due to the Americans and Europeans there. >< Had a super boring time there. And ended up eating Macs -.-"

Day 3
It is time for more shopping (: We went to the known weekend market - Chatuchak. They sell a whole range of things from lights, decorations to clothes and accessories. Once again I bought so many things there, spending slightly over my budget for the day. But lucky for me, my previous day under-spending compensated for that day's over spending (:

I bought some souvenirs too. And out of all those things I bought, there was something that I really regretted buying just one. I should have bought more of it. But I was really really broke by then. It was the last item I bought for the day I think. But now 'cause of that, it somehow has a weird connotation. Oh wells..

At night, we went to another near-by market - Suan Lum. The food there was not too bad. After dinner, we split into 2 groups: 1 went back to bathe and have a massage, the other shopped around the market. I was in the latter group. I ended up buying some pretty cute keychains, hoping to pass to a friend who's leaving for australia for further studies. But SADLY I missed the gathering the day before her flight. ):

Day 4
Once again we split into 2 groups: 1 went to explore new shopping area (Siam Square), the other went back to Chatuchak to buy more items. I was once again in the latter group. I ended up buying a table lamp only. LOL. After that, instead of joining the other group, we went to another shopping area, only to find out that they don't open on Sundays. >< Lazy to cab to Siam, we just walked along the street stores.

Blessing in disguise. I managed to find quite a number of nice items (: There was this really cool money/card holder. The way it keeps money/card is like magic! For people who I am giving that to, I will show you the magic. HAHA.

Apparently, the other group had great fun at underwater world there too. They found cheap branded stuffs there too. Oh wells. I had my share of fun too I guess. We even went for a full body massage at the end of the day too (: Though not as shiok as I expected, but better than nothing!

Day 5
Time really flew during the whole trip. I still didn't feel as if I was in Bangkok. It just felt like a camp with all my friends around. A shopping camp that is. LOL.
It is the temple visiting day! We decided to sleep in after days of waking up super early and sleeping really late. We walked to the nearest temple - Wat Arun. The temple wasn't crowded at all. We just basically walked round and look around. In order to look proper, deborah and elise actually wore maxi dresses too. But in the end, they didnt walk round the 2nd temple we went.
But something freaky happened. Lay Peng actually almost fell down in the 1st temple and sprained her ankle in the 2nd. Freaky right? I was quite scared anything else would happen. After all, she's like the one in charge of this trip.

Aside from that, Carene was sooo blur. I totally can't believe she actually did that. Oh wells. that's just her isn't it? :p

After that, it was Chinatown! All the fabrics and really wholesale selling.. The wholesale is like mad. We actually need to get like 6 pieces to get the cheaper wholesale price. And unlike at Platinum, they must be the same design! Anyway, having nothing much that interested me there and feeling guilty for spending so much, I started on this whole crappy talk with yonathan. And found out sooo much about him. A different side which I never got a chance to find out ;) And once again I was on my hysterical laughter on every slight humour.

Instead of having the much awaited seafood at Chinatown, we left early and went back for manicure and pedicure. Gosh! The results of it was horrible! We really chose the wrong shop ): At the end of it, it was like 2 plus am. I was totally shag by then and pissed by the horrible colors and service. Other than that, I was totally freaked out and pissed with this disgusting guy who tried to follow me and my friend back to the hostel. Especially when it was only 2 of us girls. Seriously I find all those people who visits those areas disgusting and totally gross ><

After that, I wonder where I got that extra energy to check up some NUS stuffs there. Probably the worry that the deadline for that was just 10 july!! Anyway it is settled already (:

Day 6 - The LAST day
To make up for the closed shopping area on Sunday, Britney and I went there to chiong shop. But still the inside shops are like closed? Weirdos! It was kinda freaky inside too. As she was on the edge to burst 'cause of the sight of nothing she wants to buy, we went back to the more populated area of Pratunam and did bought some stuffs. So ain't too bad. (:

After that, we rushed to Siam Square to have hair treatment (: Smooth and silky hair! LOL. But sadly, Britney was over-charged. 'Cause she didn't want to get me into trouble. She didn't ask if she was over-charged. I felt so bad and horrible after that, as I saw her getting pissed off and upset. ):

After all of that, we met up with the rest. Lay Peng managed to get such a nice manicure and pedicure!! So jealous :p For lunch, we went for this jap buffet which I had a horrible stomachache in the midst. Most probably 'cause of suddenly eating a lot after starving for a long time.

Half a day was gone by then. It was near to 4pm. Time to get back hostel and leave for the airport. SO FAST! >< On the way to the airport, I sat on the front seat, squashed with my luggage and bags. Slowly, with the cool air-con blowing right into my face, I got pretty emo that everything and all the fun is coming to an end ): I really don't want all these to end. I don't want to step into this new phase of life.

Anyway another horrible revealation! I freaking upsized my luggage for NOTHING! I paid S$25 for NOTHING! My luggage was barely over 15 kg. My mood was totally off by then. The whole chain of horrible things. The end of all the great fun. ): If I was alone then, I would probably have cried. Oh wells. But I wasn't.

Anyway the flight back to Singapore wasn't that bad. Yonathan and I continued the crappy conversation. Asking from family background to everything. I definitely learnt a lot about him. (: That's something good. And I stupidly accidentally told him who was my crush. How dumb! ><>< So embarrassing!

After that, at the airport, I bought some wine, liquor and beer back. Without looking at the price! Quite guilty for that. And expectedly, I got a scolding from my dad for doing so ><

But all in all, the whole trip was fun and ended well I guess. Thinking back, I really missed all the people and the fun we had together in that short 6 days which felt like eternity at that point of time! (:

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|11:59:00 p.m.|

5.7.08

[[Thailand trip]]

yipee! I am in Thailand, Bangkok now! The long awaited trip has finally arrived and I am already in the midst of it now.

Today is day 2 of the trip. But I shall start with the day 1.

Day 1: Flight to Thailand
The "oh my gosh" weird time at 0430 to reach the airport was so tiring and taxing on all 8 of us. Anyway, we still made it with nothing exceptionally weird happening to thailand. Just that I realised budget is really budget. Like what they say out there, it is a flying bus. The leg space is like "sbs bus" quoted from (I forgot who). I could totally feel every movement of the plane. It tilting to the side, moving left, right, turning, etc..

Cab to Hostel
All that talk about the taxi meter before the trip was all gone. The stupid rude taxi driver refuses to switch on the meter when the airport taxi stand obviously shows METER. And when we asked him to switch it on, he totally ignored us. Just simply refuse to. >< Irritating!
Despite that, we didn't paid that much either. The fare was still reasonable.

Shopping
To the fun part now. Laypeng, Britney and I totally went speed shopping. My eyes almost popped out at the end of it from seeing all the things. My legs were wobbly and near to giving way especially when I already suffered from a whole body ache due to that dance lesson the day before. The sleepless night didn't help either. But we still bought a pretty good amount of stuff. (: Kind of guilty for spending that much. My first ever shopping spree.

The Mixed-Up
Tired, blur and irritated. The 3 of us actually went to the wrong lobby to meet the rest. To think that I insisted so strongly that we were correct. Now I feel so embarrassed for that. >< Anyway after near to an hour of waiting around, or rather 'dying around', we managed to get them and met up. With that amount of baggage, aching bodies (esp legs), the cabs totally intend to murder us with that ridiculous cab fare back to the hostel.

The Blessing in Disguise
The walk to the final dining place was a long and energy draining one. We tried to jay walk (well actually everyone here does it) to the opposite side for food. 'cause we werent exactly liking the food we had earlier for lunch on that initial side of the road we were on. Finally making it there into the opposite shopping centre (Pratunam), we dragged our feet up to the highest floor where the food court is to see most of the stalls closed and the food court closing in about 15 min time. WONDERFUL! I just totally stoned off, got a chair and collapsed on it. Ah! that much missed rest for the legs! (: It was heavenly.
Well despite all those wasted walks and energy, we walked down the street and found a street side store with seats. Totally drained, we just settled for that although there were/was people/person especially against street food. But well well, the chicken rice turned out wonderful! It was just delicious. (: Everything! From the rice to the chicken (actually okay la. but it had loads of fats on it ><) to the soup to the satays (: yum yum! Later on, we even got to know that the chicken rice there is known for its splendid taste. What a good choice we made.

Back to the hostel
The cabs were still extremely expensive when we were done ): But in the end 4 sat a cab and the other 4 (including me) took a tutu. It was so fun! Like ridding on a roller collaster but just on actual road with cars on it. (But the air is horribly polluted) And despite the squeezy situation we were in, all 4 of us had a fun time on the short trip back.

The Night Life
Well actually our hostel is located at Patpong, the red light district in Bangkok. And just fyi, we DID NOT choose it 'cause of that. We chose it 'cause of the hostel's good reviews and rooms And I MUST SAY the rooms are really good, so is the hostel (:
Anyway after bathing, we all decided to walk around the area. Not the red light area. But somehow we walked right into it. HAHA! There were of course load of weird guys around, but also promoters asking us to go in? LOL. like excuse me? do we look the slightest bit interested? Out of the area we went and back in the right direction for some supper.
As we walked, we just reached the Patpong market, which was our initial plan for the night. Well, the things that were sold them are pretty common, not exactly appealing to me much. So I bought nothing from there. But there were more to that. The whole market was just next to this continuous stretch to no end of weird bars with girls in binkini dancing on table tops. Totally disgusting. We were continously being asked to go in and see some dunno what shows. Pingpong shows? Whatever the name is, I am just so not keen. Why the hell did we even continue walking right into the street? I really don't know...

Day 1 was more or less like that. Tiring and exhausting but good harvest for the shopping I supposed. (:

Anyway I will continue on Day 2 another day. Not as interesting as Day 1 I supposed. Just the sun burn part hurts now.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|2:44:00 a.m.|

[[*The Writer*]]

name: peizhen
bdae:05 may 1989
age: 19+
horoscope: taurus
nicks: pz
skool: peiying pri, st nicks, vj, nus
location: singapore
worth: $2,133,082

resolution: none currently

[[*My Adores*]]

food:any food!
drinks: iced cold ones! esp chocolate!
pastimes: listening to music, playing music, slacking, stoning
people: all who consider me as a friend! (:

[[*My Detests*]]

people: none so far! hopefully forever too!
food: anything tasteless or taste horrible!

[[*Music's Playing*]]

artist: tank
song: give me your love

[[*My Past Memories*]]

[[*The Conversations*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

[[*Credits*]]