[[*W i n t e r T e a r s*]]

16.1.09

[[disappointment]]

Why everyone thinks so horribly of him? ): haha. So far all shocked reactions and wonder why I made that decision.

Sadness. ):

How? How? Why is everyone so disappointed? ><

Oh well.. I shall just let the sadness eat me up from inside to out for the time being.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|6:23:00 a.m.|

15.1.09

[[going nuts!]]

I am going nuts! Totally unlike myself and just things I shouldn't and won't do out of my normal self! ><

WHAT HAS GONE WRONG? ):

oh wells.. I guess it will get back to normal soon. Not gonna think about it already.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|8:23:00 p.m.|

12.1.09

[[attached]]

okay. I guess to a certain extent I should at least mention it here on my very deserted blog that I am attached. Well.. usually people say one is happily attached/in a relationship. All the sweet moments and what not.

Well well.. mine is kinda different. Honestly speaking, it didn't really started that sweet. In fact it was a total mess and complications when it started. I actually wanted to take back my words. That was the kind of sticky disgusting situation I got myself into. Oh well. but that is history I suppose. But of course I did that for a reason! I am not that unreasonable and fickle-minded. It was more of a put on standby mode rather than a take back my words.

Anyway the situation now after the Yunnan trip is much better I suppose. At least it is not that complicated anymore (: I think I should be glad. But somehow I keep getting the feeling that I am missing out on something that I ought to know. I really dread that. Or maybe it is just that friend of mine who puts things in such a way that as if I didn't know it. For all i know, I already know about it. But still I HATE the feeling of being in the dark. It takes a hell lot of effort to feign ignorance about the existence of it (which I dunno what). Haish.. What have I put myself into?!

There is a solution that I just thought of! TRUST! absolute trust in him. But I am seriously fearful if my trust would be misplaced. I don't want to be cheated. >< HOW? argh. I am going crazy! Who should I trust? I know no one other than me would possibly know the answer to this question. But I really don't know too!

Gosh at this rate, I am going to suffocate from this struggle.

Ah okay. now I know part of it. And yes I do know of it already.. insecurity.. hmm.. but that's just the least? What's more?

Ah. my head is spinning from all these things.. I knew relationships aren't good things to step into. That's why my stand for pro-evergreen! My advice to all those not attached. don't get attached. haish..

Lastly for all those concerned about me, don't worry. I am far (at least I think pretty far) from a break up currently. Just the usual emo and think too much till my head spins round and round and round.

[[Story Written On By pZ]]*|1:10:00 a.m.|

[[*The Writer*]]

name: peizhen
bdae:05 may 1989
age: 19+
horoscope: taurus
nicks: pz
skool: peiying pri, st nicks, vj, nus
location: singapore
worth: $2,133,082

resolution: none currently

[[*My Adores*]]

food:any food!
drinks: iced cold ones! esp chocolate!
pastimes: listening to music, playing music, slacking, stoning
people: all who consider me as a friend! (:

[[*My Detests*]]

people: none so far! hopefully forever too!
food: anything tasteless or taste horrible!

[[*Music's Playing*]]

artist: tank
song: give me your love

[[*My Past Memories*]]

[[*The Conversations*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

[[*Credits*]]